I’m so grateful for past, present and future. This years journey has been one of loss and gain. But as it’s said, don’t let a win get to your head or a loss to your heart. I believe the great spirit is leading me down a path of renewal. A renewal of heart, mind and spirit.
I find peace in growing. I find a world that pulls me into her. A version of the universe sent to us to realize the united organism we all are. United in experience of the moment. United in the frequency of creation and passion. The feeling rises from within like billowing smoke from a volcano that has been in a quiet slumber for far too long.
The PTGC was my first go at journaling. It was also my first clones from my first grow back. I’ve been on a bit of a leave of absence. In that grow I attempted to grow a bonsai rooted over a rock. It did better than expected but more importantly, it opened up many more avenues of thought. The thought I grasped onto for the time being is a thought of regeneration.
The bonsai is in a process of becoming more. Just as we all are. The power already lies within the genetic codes. I did not do the best to provide an optimal environment and the genetic code was disrupted. Had I continued to clone and grow in that environment I would get the same results. But what if I took the already created being and provide a better environment for her to flourish? How do I make it a better environment? I listen. I look. I ask. I knocked and a door was opened.
There had been a good root structure forming over the previous grow but my impatience stopped that short.
After harvesting a majority of the buds on the plant I left smaller buds behind. The plan is to have the buds become growing points for a monster crop grow.
In the last group of clones I had, there were a few that went to full in flower with great little buds. I took those flowering buds and revegged them by putting them under 24 hours of light. The process was ugly. It was prolly just my method but it was ugly. Lol Everything we work for to get a flowering female is put in rewind. Stuff goes brown, dies, green, grows, dies again. It looks like deficiencies but idk... point is, they come back with a beautiful vengeance.
You know how seeds are all hugged up in the calyx of a pollinated female? And in that seed(when sprouted and grown) there is more life? Same thing in the flower. Life springs forward from those same calyxes like seeds sprouting from within. I’m sure there’s a scientific explanation but it is mesmerizing in my mind and my eyes.
Soooo reveg and help her flourish over a new rock. By the time new years is here She should be like a newly rooted clone. The vibration I’m putting out there is to have her grown under LEDs while vegging. I’m a couple of weeks into flower and will have to move her around a bit. But it’ll all work out the way it should. Ohhhh and she’s in coco now.
The resilience and beauty of this plant continues to keep me eagerly waiting for her next undulation.
I was ready to give up on her. I was ready to stop. I didn’t gather myself. I didn’t explore the thoughts behind the emotion. I just reacted. But deeper within me, where the source of vibration of life emits, I was given that same nudge. The reminder to follow the voice that has been there ever since ever since. The voice, the wind, the energy, the life.
This is my first auto ever! I’m very happy with the results so far. It’s stayed in a one gallon pot got control of size but I wonder about the possible size in a bigger pot. I’ve also had to keep her under 12/12 for the past week since I have to flower that tent. But because I have 3 more seeds, I will be running them for the SAFC in hopes of letting them grow out bigger. But until then, this is her progress.
